not moving........for now

well i am at peace with my anxiety and such now i don't know weather my medication finally kicked in or came to my senses and figured out that i was running away from the problem or what but after long discussion with the hubby we decided not move . now i know for weeks i have been excited to move but then i was giving myself anxiety at the same time maybe i thought moving would give me a new life or would solve all my problems instead of facing them but it just caused me more stress and anxiety and you know what ? As soon as i decided not to move all the anxiety just lifted away and i felt better maybe i should listen to my thoughts more often . and now after we told the landlord we were not moving she want's to fix things now if i can just get my apartment reorganized  that will be another thing i also have been thinking i need to get help with my issues and not hide behind them maybe i can get out more , go for walks to make myself feel better in times of stress. I did a while back join this adult day progam for people with mental health issues called partnership place and i have started to feel better about things but odsp disability not giving me and hubby enough to live on is an issue we have a hard time making every day needs but transportation is a problem the bus being at $3.25 a ride makes it hard but i am working on getting transportation just i got the form filled out almost 3 months ago and i have a problem remembering to bring it in. my doctor unfourtently only put it for 3 months so i guess i will bring that one in and then get another filled out but still i feel like a dufus  not bring it in the first place

well i guess that all for now until next time

anxiety over finding an apartment

lately i have been having anxiety over looking for an apartment i have alot of issues about no moving but not being able to find one i only have 2 more weeks until the end of the month when my 60 days is up and i have to vacate this apartment but all i can find is basment apartments . To me basment apartments feel like one of these

yes a dungeon no light ( or very little) no natural light tiny windows being underground and having a feeling of no escape. I once lived in a basement apartment it was horrible which is why i have anxiety over basement apartments in the first place the one i lived in had very little storage ( being a semi hoarder this was no good for me) it also was very cold all year round like a freezer (very little heat coming out of the vent)  there was mildew and mold and it was way too small for my and hubby sometimes i felt i could never escape. After moving out of there i vowed never to live in a basement again i'm scared that i may have to now i have been trying to find a place but every time i try to get one i'm too late. Now the pressure is on to find a place i need a nice place where i will feel safe like this

hopefully okay i may be dreaming here but i do not want a dingy basement apartment like this

or this

because these type of basement apartments make me feel like i'm living here

okay i know basement apartments can't all be that bad i have seen some horrible ones and live in a horrible one but if i had to i want a nice one one that will feel like home make me feel safe not give me anxiety about it like this one

or this one

probley wont happen but i can't think like that i could find one like that but i just like the view from my place i wont have that in a basement makes me sad in a way 

all i can do is pray and let god guide the way !!!

until next time everyone 

pintrest saturday

forgot all about pinrest saturday last week with easter and packing as iam moving at the end of the month so as promised i will post the easter pins and some others i found this week.

Cute Easter bunnies made from socks

Bunny Cake anyone ?

these bunny favor bags are just so cute

Cute bunny jars 

these crocheted easter egg coasters are so cute 

loving this blue cheese potato salad i must try to make this

what every girl needs an emergency clutch to put anything you need in an emergency band aids, tampons, tums, Tylenol  you get the idea !!!

great idea to transport cupcakes to a party used egg cartons

love these for a wedding just a little bit of ribbon and decorated candle holder

and this ribbon headband is lovely simple yet elegant

that all for the pins until next week happy pinning :)

book review : chicken soup for the soul O Canada

thought i would start doing book reviews on here and who don't like books right ?

Chicken soup for the soul : o canada is a great book this book has heartfelt stories about canadians , our love for hockey, how friendly we are, to tim horton's to cottage life in our great cottage country, people traveling far and wide across our great countryand meeting friendly down to earth canadians who would give the shirt off our back if we had to. This book is a great inspriation how the canadian people are like and live. Yes, we do say eh ! alot but this book opened my mined to canadians like us who stand together as a nation in the good times and the bad. We love our hockey as so many stories are quoted early morning practices and always with a timmies in had or just to gather at the arena or in front of the telivision just to watch the game and to cheer when our team scores.

This book has stories from famous people  like amy sky and just fellow canadians and americans friends who have visited and seen how as a nation we are friendly folk and helpful in times of need, and fellow canadians who used to live in canada. This book is a good read for anyone who wants to learn about our great nation and the people in it or fellow canadians who will be inspired of the people in your own community. This book really inspired me and made me think of all of us who live in big cities and small towns and grew up with our harsh winters and and made me remember the memories of my childhood growing up in canada where i still live today.I could not think about ever living anywhere else in the world but my home canada.

this book is by simon and schuster  & The retail value of this book is $14.95 US and is available at most book stores